First OR new grad nursing mistake

I’m a new grad nurse in the OR. I made one of the worst mistakes ever. I’m still in orientation, I went to get the patient in periop, one of the nurses should’ve signed me out and made sure everything was good to go.

I spoke with the nurse and she said, she will verify eveything in the computer. ( I don’t have access to the computer in periop) even if I had access- I was not trained in that department.

I interviewed the pt in periop and pt verified, yes it’s the —- correct site. Anesthesiologist walked in and said — we’re ready to go. I totally forgot about the fact I asked the pt “ had he seen the surgeon yet?”

Pt arrived to the OR, spinal already administered and pt was put to sleep. As my preceptor applying the bovie pad, I realized that the pt wasn’t marked and I quickly vocalized it and told her… wait… the surgeon didn’t marked the operating site.

The nurse that I’m with… quickly called the unit manager to the room. Unit manager comforted me and said “ I’m humble enough to know that I made a mistake and it’s fixable.” However; the nurse that I’m shadowing today made it seemed like it’s life /death situation.

Surgeon had to break sterility from another room to come marked the pt.

Anywho… I think I’m over it. I’m planning to either quit or call off in the upcoming days.

I’ve never been so afraid in my whole entire life like this. All I can think of, if this pt sues the hospital- I might have to go to court..

I’m over it.