Taking birth control without his knowledge.

Husband & I, both in our 20s, got married about a year ago. He’s always been anti birth control.. his reasonings? - Concerned for my health.. (side effects) - Wanted to have kids asap

I told him if he is concerned for my health we can use condoms, especially when I’m ovulating as I didn’t feel ready to have kids with him but he refused condoms.

Few months into our marriage, I got pregnant & had a miscarriage. During my miscarriage I was diagnosed with fibroids & due to the fibroids I was experiencing heavy bleeding for 3 months straight. I was in and out the hospital & nothing helped but Alhamdulilah, my dua was answered & it finally stopped.

After months I’m finally feeling alive. No more fatigue & exhaustion. I told my husband, I wanted to get on birth control because I don’t feel mentally physically ready for pregnancy after my last scare & he says he doesn’t want me to get on it & would rather sleep separately. He also says he really wants me to get pregnant in the next 6 months if Allah wills and is obsessed with my health/ body. Telling me to track my cycle, eat certain foods, avoid certain things etc etc.

He’s normally not controlling at all & is so chill & loving etc but not sure what got over him. I didn’t want to continue this conversation because it kept going nowhere so I decided to get birth control without his knowledge, just for the next 6 months to a year until I feel like myself again. I haven’t started it yet, because it feels wrong & im worried about sinning incase it’s actually a sin but he’s not responsible & my body doesn’t feel ready.

Should I start it? Is it wrong Islamically? (Will try to ask a scholar, just haven’t yet). What would you do?