How Do You "People" In Your Late 30s?

My lord, I wish this was a meme post but I am honestly here to discuss the idea of "people'ing".

Now hitting 37 I find myself inside 99% of the time because I adapted it from pandemic and so on. Remote work has doubled down on my hermit skills and I feel it killed a huge chunk of me.

I feel like I am a awkward shape in a human body that is trying to play off they are normal. Tonight I got enough courage to put on actual clothes that wasn't a hoodie and sweats and stopped into a local brewery to check the vibe out.

As soon as I entered the establishment my heart started pounding and I just felt weak but mustered on to the bar. I got a drink and sat down at a table to attempt to obsorb the atmosphere and deep down I hated every minute.

After two drinks I hoped it would ease my feeling but it didn't. I felt hot with anger but not at people but myself for struggling.

I use to be such an extrovert and full of energy and always outgoing but I look back at that as now a husk of a person.

So I come to ask pointers or check in with others because I can't be the only person who feels like this. I literally feel like the existence of my life is missing a spark I can no longer see.

How does one "people" these days?