Anyone else feel like their mental health is affected?

I’ve been through hard times before and are going through some hard times now. But I’ve always tried to be positive and just get on with life.

This is a different kind of “depression” I’ve never felt so emotionally low in my life. I’ve never had such dark thoughts. I don’t know if it’s menopause related? I’m 46 and in perimenopause. I had my last period over 8 months ago.