Just plain ugh!

Been married for 9 years. I love my husband but also can't stand him at the same time!! I want to still be married to him, but at the same time I dont!! I want to support him on everything he do, but I can't!! He's a great father to our kids, but a horrible husband to me!!! I cater to him and his every needs, but he can't do the same to me. He's a huge people pleaser. Always trying to make everyone feel good about themselves and always giving advise to his coworkers and friends, spending great amount money on them. But when I need help, or advise, he tells me to deal with it and figuer it out. We both work, and we both contribute to our bills, we both are very attend to our kids. But when I want our time together, even s*x, he only wants head, or just lay in bed playing games on his phone. He claim "that's our time together ". Ugh!!! I can't stand it!! I want to love this man but ugh I can't with this no emotional and physical affection. And YES, we done talk about this before and we done see married Counseling, but it just revert back to it. That's why I'm still with for this long! I want to still be with him, but I don't at the same time. 😩 ugh so fed up. But my heart won't let him go. Ugh!!!!