Life decisions

On Monday I bought a laptop.(yaaay,my first big purchase)In my head I wanted to get into IT,coding,programming and whatnot),(this is one reason ive decided to quit hazing)mind you I have no prior knowledge on the subject,just basic computational skills-and I mean baaaasic.Well,in my defense I just thought I'd learn as I go from YouTube,coding games etcetera...now I think I went in way over my head since niko na lapi natumua kama Glorified TV with no idea how I can turn it into an asset.What stresses me the most is that,I bought it with money I borrowed from a chama I was introduced to(again...in my head I was acquiring an asset)now im in debt,the job i have ni minimum wage,iko on and off na salo imekuwa kiasi offlate.Today i woke up to a text from home asking for support concerning one two things(im brooooke)😭😭ni day three since i got it and just looking at it almost gave me a nervous breakdown.

Namaintain tu composure juu sasa what is a man to do than suffer in silence?anyways if any of you guys is interested in a machine,I'm willing to part ways with it🥲...DM if interested