I built my entire personality around Kanye West

Before, I was shy, insecure and had the worst style you could think of. I was waiting for things to happen to me and stayed quiet in the crowd. Then in my 17's I discovered Kanye West and everything changed. As I wanted to be like him I forced myself to change my personnality trait, I was acting confident like him until I was, I build my wardrobe around him and his releases, I started saying people what I think without filtering and became popular in high school.

Even my parent call me "the little Kanye West" of the family.

I tried as much as possible to find excuses during the years and I was becoming a bit strange and crazy for some people I even lost some friends for him.

But now I can't answer my phone anymore, it feels like people have been waiting for this moment where I couldn't find any excuses and they want to see me cry on the phone launching some "I told you so'

I'm having a personal crisis right now, trying to avoid everyone because I can't fight these people anymore, because even me I don't believe in Ye anymore