Should I commit suic*de?

This is not my first time felling this, In Feb 2024 when I was off my anti-depressants I felt something similar,
I remember I used to go to roof and sit at the concrete of roof railing, looking down 5 floor down at the road, dogs barking and running and those yellow street lights, around 3am. I don't how I survived that time, but I don't feel mentally strong that enough now. I feel like I don't have purpose of life within me.
I'm not happy with my situation, what should I do?
I have lost interest in everything what I used to do.
I love doing coding, playing football, running, but I have started loosing interest in all the thing.
I have have friends, I barely had any friends since 9th class, most of them ended up in few months only.
I have 0 interaction with girls, sometime I feel emotionally drained and felt need for affection, but it looks like I have no one to talk and share with, what I feel, but who cares? No one, no one gives a shit.
I have been without any friend since a year, sitting in room
I don't know why people don't like me? I don't even have good relation with my parents and have fights with them on regular basis.
I'm really frustrated with my life, the life I'm living right now.
I have tried self motivating to myself but It doesn't last long, if you would search the meaning of consistency in me, it won't exist.
also I'm not stressed due to exams and all and not sad that I'm not prepared for it, I really don't know but I feel a emptiness in myself for some reason, idk it's something idk.
I literally sleep for life 8-10 hours, and there are some days when I don't get sleep at all, and even cry sometime when doing to sleep.
When I woke up in morning I have this empty numbness felling, and I question my self "what am I doing?, kya karu aab" and similar things coming to my mind and then I cry sitting on my chair.
I can't just find the happiness in my life, I'm not happy for what I'm doing and I don't have anyone to share this.
I'm shivering while writing this.