Bitul Hayesh

Stuck in traffic

Stuck inside of me

I shrink wrapped you

Did you feel that?

I feel that.

I Exhaled your name in the only way, with fugacious exclamation.
My breath fled from me Into you

so quickly

So I shrank

I vacuum sealed your name inside of

Me … my lungs.

Involuntarily, but I’m not mad

I’m in my head, all week. Fluctuations all momentary .

Stop go stop go stop

I must be capable of more self control than this: Yes. No. Yes. No. Yes.

I can get closer than this- Self negation - To God . I wanted to want for no thing, Save self restraint

But now all I think is :

Yes. Go. Yes. Go. Yes.

Breathing is a givin’ As long as I am livin’ But ‘til God decides otherwise You can have it: that space I’d otherwise save for the air Inside of my lungs.