iwtl : how can I, as male, can overcome my misogyny and accept feminism ?

I want to be a feminist. I know it is true
But I was raised in very patriarchal misogynist way. I believe feminism and I want to be a good man and an ally to females.

However, there are things I do which that I don’t even realise is misogynistic. I think it’s called a micro aggression??

Also, sometime I get angry and say misogynistic things. I find it hard to accept feminism sometimes because my patriarchal surroundings and upbringing tells me women have a role beneath men to serve them. Sometimes when I get upset I get angry at females and feminism and blame them. I think I have male entitlement and fragile/toxic masculinity. If I girl reject me I get angry and call her misogynistic name. I have incel tendencies and I get mad when it’s like feminism blamed men and patriarchy or when they say men need to do better even though I know that true

I realise it’s bad but idk why it is hard for me to accept feminism. Maybe because I was raised to believe that men are superior and are owed service from women and women are property??

Please help how I can learn to be an ally to women. Some of the stuff I don’t understand. I truly want to be better because I want to understand the female experience and help women because I know deep down they are disadvantaged.

Please if you want, DM me. I really want to do best. And give me any resources. How can I be better at centering women in a way that is respectful.