I fucking hate myself ever since I started balding

I never thought I'd care this much about hair, but ever since I started balding, it has completely destroyed my mental health. Everything else in my life is going great, but it still hurts me to no end that I'm losing hair and can't do anything about it. And before anyone says start treatment, I've been on finasteride for an year at this point, with zero results. Hair is thin as fuck, and I'm still suffering from insane dandruff even though I use keto shampoo every other day. I oiled my hair just now, and literally lost like 30% of my density in a span of 10 minutes.

Man fuck whatever God decided to give men these shitty genetics that cause balding. I'm already ugly as fuck, the only good thing I had going for me was my hair, and I can't even have that any more it seems. I look like a literal goblin when I'm bald. Please can anyone give me any advice on what to do, or how to stop caring about my hair so much.