Is anyone else’s life just falling apart after losing a loved one?

I lost my mom 7 months ago today. I am not the same person.

My marriage is in shambles. I’ve lost friends. I’ve had to get medicated (200 of sertraline). I’ve done grief counseling, OCD therapy, group grief therapy, and couple’s counseling. I don’t have hobbies or interests. I don’t view things the same way anymore.

I just don’t even know who I am.