8 days no contact. Somebody please convince me not to text her

I miss her so much it is eating me up inside. How could she be so okay without me in her life while I'm over here heartbroken? Every morning when I wake up, I still check to see if she texted me then it hits me that she's left me and my heart breaks all over again. She left me like all that time together meant nothing, was anything we had together even real? Everything seemed so perfect until she broke up with me over text 2 days after we had went to the museum together and talking about how she invited me to spend thanksgiving with her family. Now suddenly she lost feelings? What did I do to deserve this. I loved you so purely and genuinely. I would not wish this pain on her no matter how badly she hurt me. I wish I could hate her so I could move on but I can't even bring myself to hate her even after what she put me through.