Emotions post op

I think it’s finally hitting me all that happened. I have been pretty numb the past few weeks and people have been saying “I’m sorry” and the “ how are you feeling texts” and I’ve been okay but some part of me also just feels like I haven’t fully processed the whole situation. I have had such PTSD. Constantly feeling around my stomach, checking for pain or another possible internal bleed. The what if my internal incision opened after my surgery or what if something else is wrong inside that I just don’t know about? My back pain has been dull and lingering for some time. I just feel like I should expect something else to go wrong. I know that is bad to say but just expressing my feelings: I guess I have masked the situation and it’s haunting me: anyone else felt like this?