Sitting at a bar alone

I (36)F am sitting at a bar alone, with a glass of wine, and I feel like such a loser. My heart is ripped to shreds.

He’s an alcoholic and addicted to porn/virtual sex. I’m almost 99% he’s probably hooked up in person but I have no proof.

He’s chased other women on screen to fulfill his desires and needs while my own needs have been neglected.