I’m reconciled to the fact I’ll go to Hell

I am very sinful. But anger, especially towards my parents, is a major sin which I have not been able to control or overcome.

After a major outburst at my parents this morning, I drove to Mass. During the service, I realised I no longer feel any dread of Hell, just acceptance that I’ll never be good enough for Heaven and that there is no point trying to become ‘holy’.

My parents can be extremely difficult, but I know my behaviour is wrong. Even sins like masturbation I can control and ‘stop’ myself before a near occasion becomes actually committing a sin, but this anger is all encompassing. I just wish I could overcome it