I'm tired of God's silence in my life

I'm 21 yo and I've been catholic my whole life. Now I'm starting to doubt if there really is any God. I never felt God or had any experience. I used to pray every day but my prayers were met with silence or ignored. At this point I've been considering getting into the occult just to know if there really is any kind of "spiritual realm" or something more than this material world because at this point I don't know what to think after all these years of silence.