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Hi! I’m 20 years old, and I have a boyfriend. We’ve been together for 4 months. We always sleep together kasi legal kami and normal na nandito siya. Para na nga kaming live-in, eh. But the thing is, for four consecutive months, I feel like I’m hiding.

I feel like I’m always showing the best version of myself. First boyfriend ko siya, and even though lagi kaming magkatabi, he doesn’t know what my birthmark looks like without concealer. Every time maliligo ako, gigising sa umaga, or bago matulog, I always put concealer on. It’s draining me. Napapatanong na lang ako sa sarili ko, “Bakit para akong nagtatago?”

Biggest insecurity ko talaga yung birthmark ko. Kaya nga di ako nag-bf dati kasi di ko pa kayang tanggapin yung sarili ko hahaha. But things happened, and now I don’t know how I can tell him. I feel like it’s a big issue. Hays, grabe ang burden, HAHAHAH.