Do you often feel like you don't have much longer to live?

This isn't about suicide, but more like you're so exhausted from everything, with how both your mental and physical health are so wrecked from CPTSD; the chronic pain, the insomnia, the meds/supplements you have to take, the stress, the isolation, the lack of support, etc. And the fact that CPTSD reduces your lifespan as well. Sometimes I wonder if I'll suddenly stop waking up soon because my body won't be able to take it anymore. I'm only 26, but I can't imagine living beyond 30 or 40 right now.