Do you cringe at your own existence?

The feeling you get when you think of a bad or embarrassing memory. That cringe in the pit of your stomach. Does anyone else feel it in your present everyday life, just a cringey feeling at your very own existence? It makes me feel so very small. As if everyone else can sense my own inadequacy. Feel my embarrassment.

I'm not where most people my age are in life. I've come a long way to get here though and I should be proud, but I'm not. I just feel embarrassed and ashamed.

I don't know. I just hate that feeling in my gut.