CHS ruined my year (2024)

Just sitting and realising how many times I’ve had an episode or been hospitalised this year. I believe I’ve had 10 episodes this year, some left me in hospital for a whole week. I became anorexic, skin and bones. Was so weak. Would wake up vomitting. I went cold turkey in July. And by end of august I was a whole new woman. Eating, being able to drink alcohol without dying the next day. It was amazing. But my sl0w self started smoking again last month and I had an episode a month after smoking again. I’m 6 days in now of being weed free again and having to deal with the withdrawals again (horrible). Don’t be like me and don’t let it ruin your first half of your twenties. I was sick for he last 5 years, but this year was deffo the worst, thinking about it makes me so sad, was I that depressed I was willing to keep smoking knowing it’s killing me…. The end is now!