CHS has been destroying my life and career since 2020 (24 y/o female)

I been suffering with CHS since 2020. I’ve been hospitalised over 15 times in 2024 (in under a year 😩) since January. I thought at first it was only alcohol related bcs everytime I went out and drank the next day I had to be hospitalised. So I stopped drinking and I didn’t have an episode in a month. Im sooo addicted to cannabis so I guess I was trying to act like it wasn’t the issue and blame alcohol. When it’s both…

I thought my CHS was over bcs I stopped drinking as alcohol is a trigger but man…I was hospitalised yesterday for 13 hours and vomitted over 20 times. I didn’t drink or eat any triggers? Just woke up with the worst acid reflux that didn’t go away until the end of the day. I literally feel sewer sidal when I’m in this sickly CHS state. My local a&e think I’m crazy and I’m literally a regular and I know all the workers at this rate…I had a big opportunity in my career ( one of the biggest events of my career) which I was excited about for months, I had to cancel because of my CHS. There’s been so many times I’ve had to cancel important meetings, shoots and bookings due to my CHS. I am nearly anorexic and I used to be curvy. I’m 48kg. I am bones now. This is killing me but I’m so addicted. Help me guys…I’m gonna stop weed from today. Let’s see how this journey goes. Because I love hearing how other ppl with CHS speak on how their whole life and health changed after quitting.

Also no one talks about how women with CHS will have Hyperemesis gravidarum during pregnancy. During my whole pregnancy I was hospitalised and lived off anti sickness. Couldn’t eat or drink nothing. I wasn’t even smoking those days as much. I basically had CHS for a month with no breaks. The worst time of my life. I had to have an abortion because I could not live with this CHS thing everyday and every night for 9 months. I think the pregnancy hormones made my CHS go on 100! It was unbelievable bad.

Let’s see how this journey of quitting Cannabis works. I’ve been smoking since 2018 so it won’t be easy. Any tips on how to avoid weed addiction? How can I keep my mind off it? The one thing that helps with my depression is slowly killing me.