Fuck this world

yesterday was my birthday and im always happy and but today im ded from inside. everyone is getting an intern or doing good gsoc or sob or cp or dev and me i. fucked i lost the ability to make things i lost im a loser as always. i failed in love i failed as a grandson as a son as a friend. im a failure. please man whybshould i live. i cant fuckunh make a peer to peer file/message sharing app in one day . sorry 11th me i failed u too. loser me what should i do.