I’m close to texting him

The last time I reached out to him was December 2024 and he broke up with me November 2024 around Thanksgiving. I keep typing out the text message and then deleting it. I'm so afraid to press send but my heart in mind are telling me to text him. I'm not sure what to do. He was the one who broke up with me And never wanted to meet me halfway in the relationship. I know I shouldn't text him, but I feel so lost and confused.

Update: Any tough love is recommended. I guess after he unfollowed me on instagram the other day out of the blue after three months it caused me to take three steps back I'm stuck hurting again