some please help it really hurts

I've been struggling a lot lately, feeling overwhelmed and breaking down almost every day for the past four months since we broke up. The situation is incredibly complicated, and I feel like I just can't handle it anymore. Every day feels like there's a heavy weight on my chest, making it hard to breathe. It's affecting my daily life—I try so hard to stay motivated and keep up with my tasks, but I always end up back at square one, just crying.

I've tried everything I can think of. I've reached out to friends, family, and counsellors for support. I've tried engaging in activities and hobbies I enjoy, but nothing seems to help. It hurts so much, and to make things worse, a few days ago, he said some really hurtful things that shattered me even more.

I've tried so incredibly hard for us, but in the end I was hit with an "I sometimes dread spending time with you" and stuff like that. I suppose that's how he feels, and yeah I need to let you but it's been really difficult.... It really seems like he has lost love/feelings for me and that's ok.

I feel completely lost and desperately need advice. If anyone has any suggestions, I’m open to hearing them.