Shame might be something you're feeling post discard without realizing it

I watched the new Superman trailer today and realized I'm being weighed down by feelings of shame

When I saw him rush in to save the little girl, it clicked.

I was ashamed of my "savior" mentality, and how I let her take advantage of it to use me and abuse me. It wasn't just anger, there was also lots and lots of shame.

Seeing that part of the trailer also made me feel good for the first time in a long time. Because it showed good people want to help others when they see them in need. Like Superman, I wanted to help people.

I do know now that disordered people need to help themselves, but the trailer showed me that my desire to help people isn't in itself bad. I just need to be more careful with who I help. It helped me get over alot of the shame I've had about what happened. I feel allot better