I can’t think about the future.

I am trying to make decisions and long term plans--and it just feels... impossible. I feel like I'm totally guessing what life will be like in the US in the next few years.

Is it just me?

Like what is the economy going to be like in a year? I keep hearing prices of everything are going to go up. How are our basic ways of living going to change? It just feels like we're living on a very tense tipping point, and its hard to dream or get excited about my personal life, or plan anything.

I feel like I'm going to be white knuckling my way out of my 30s. After the pandemic, so many other horrific things happening I can't even list, and now this election--I feel like the world at large has stolen my ability to trust that things will ever sort themselves out. Before 2020, I felt like I could reasonably predict what the world would be like in a year. Now? It feels like I can't predict anything. Nothing feels stable enough to bet on.

This makes me feel like I can't get excited about things, or look forward to anything. While I know we never really know what the future holds, and even when we think we do--it's all an illusion. Anything could always happen at anytime. This feels different than that. It feels like it is actually certain things are going to change very dramatically, it's just not knowing how it will.

How are you functioning? Are you going on as if the world is normal?