At the end of my rope - Diagnosed as schizophrenic yet have clear thought patterns and communication. Concerned it's a psychic awakening, though that normally isn't something I "believe" in. Does ANYTHING about my chart suggest something about myself changing now?

I'm an engineer who has done quite well for myself in life. Career wise, I have the seniority of an individual in their latest 30s-early 40s.

My mental health history is a bit of a mess. I've had delusions at 24, 26, and now 27 going into 28 about the same thing - that we are all a system in a perpetual network with one another. That some are in on how closely this system operates and others are on the outskirts, not clued into the greater system. Without using my phrasing, I've been told this is "hippy bullshit." Been on antipsychotics, yet the delusions remain. I see many synchronicities with numbers, but I work with numbers all day and see a lot of them so I don't put much weight into that.

I'm at the end of my rope mentally, spiritually, and physically. I want to spin out into the ether and let my ashes fall where they lie.

I didn't put much weight into astrology until recently. Kind of a last ditch effort for an person like myself. I'm quite satisfied alone, and feel stifled by people surrounding me.

I posted the other day and some very kind commenter's pointed out recent planetsry movements that may indicate something about my alignment in life. Does that factor into this?

Again, at the end of my rope. Really, really could use guidance from someone with a viewpoint outside my own.

I'm an engineer who has done quite well for myself in life. Career wise, I have the seniority of an individual in their latest 30s-early 40s.

My mental health history is a bit of a mess. I've had delusions at 24, 26, and now 27 going into 28 about the same thing - that we are all a system in a perpetual network with one another. That some are in on how closely this system operates and others are on the outskirts, not clued into the greater system. Without using my phrasing, I've been told this is "hippy bullshit." Been on antipsychotics, yet the delusions remain. I see many synchronicities with numbers, but I work with numbers all day and see a lot of them so I don't put much weight into that.

I'm at the end of my rope mentally, spiritually, and physically. I want to spin out into the ether and let my ashes fall where they lie.

I didn't put much weight into astrology until recently. Kind of a last ditch effort for an person like myself. I'm quite satisfied alone, and feel stifled by people surrounding me.

I posted the other day and some very kind commenter's pointed out recent planetsry movements that may indicate something about my alignment in life. Does that factor into this?

Again, at the end of my rope. Really, really could use guidance from someone with a viewpoint outside my own.