Can anyone help me with the feeling of me thinking I have to be perfect to be a Christian?

I've been through a lot of trauma in my life, so it may be a trauma response. But I've given up my faith because the way I go about life is if I feel I'm not going to be absolutely perfect at something, then I don't even try. Or if I mess up or if I'm not being good enough in my mind at something, then I stop doing said thing and give up.