Ashwagandha Adventures

I have massive social anxiety and generalized anxiety. I'm terrified of leaving the house and terrified of speaking to people and terrified of doing something wrong and can hardly function. I can't even have a job or drive or go to the doctor because I'm terrified of all these things. I hardly ever leave the house out of fear.

I needed to go to my storage locker today, with the help of a random stranger to haul some furniture back to my house. Which is of course, terrifying. In the morning I felt very odd and unprepared and anxious and wanted to back out. I had been planning this for months and not looking forward to it at all.

Before I left, I noticed my first bottle of ashwagandha had come in the mail. I had never taken it before but somewhat recklessly decided I would take one, in the hopes that it would help me get through this crazy day.

I also take many other supplements every day to help with chronic fatigue, and focus. I also take St John's wort for mood stabilization and L-theanine for anxiety, with these I usually wind up with some energy but still tons of anxiety.

I normally take a caffeine pill every day, and today I also had a V8 energy which has caffeine and B vitamins, which I do once in awhile for an added boost, as I have chronic fatigue, and ADHD which means I have awful brain fog without these things.

Normally the amount of energizing things I take understandably give me MORE anxiety. And having the extra caffeine and B vitamins today I would normally be jittery and anxious.

But I felt superhuman today. I had a lively talk with this stranger who was helping me move stuff the entire time we were driving, and I walked into a gas station, used the ATM, and bought a coffee, all without ANY anxiety. Normally I'd be breathing heavy and nervous as all hell and beating myself up for saying stupid things etc but I wasn't anxious AT ALL and found the whole thing very easy and natural and did not give two shits what a single person thought of me, nor did it even cross my mind, when normally I automatically assume that everyone thinks I'm weird and stupid and doing everything wrong, and can't stop focusing on it to the point I can't think straight and wind up messing up more.

Yes I'm in therapy.

Is it possible that the ashwagandha really did this, or did I just have a really odd miracle day??