AIO: Confronting my abusive dad

TW: ABUSE, SELF HARM. And idk what else tbh.

TLDR; abusive dad is being asshole, need advice.

Hey, i'm a 15 male and my dad is a 40 male. If you want more context check my other posts where i talk about specific other topics. I'm to numb to go into specifics apart from today. Thanks.

So me and my dad dont have a great relationship at all. Mostly to blame to his explosive anger and outright unfair judgement towards me. He expects me to treat him well and move him while he SA's me, treats me like shit, compares me to others and sees me as walking competition or punching bag. (He also favorites my sisters over me but that doesnt matter)

Anyways so today, I'm struggling to get closer to my religion. I'm not the most spiritual guy but l'm trying. Anyways Duhr (afternoon prayer) comes around and i pray at home instead of the mosque. He comes back from the mosque starts lecturing me on how i have to pray there and asks to see my search history to see what distracted me from praying.

I dont have anything to hide so i say ok. But he keeps on taking the laptop as he "wants to see on his own" i tell him i want to see what he's doing as its my laptop (literally mine, he didnt pay a penny for it, i won it from a school competition) anyways he insists to take the laptop to another room to i shut it down from the power button.

He tells me to open it and i tell him i wont as i want him to check infront of me. He gets angry at me as i don't usually stand up to him, but l've recently been fed up with his bullshit. (This is the 2nd time i stand up to him this week, might make a separate post ab this)

So he gets really mad and starts hitting me, and honestly from how fed up i was, i just stared at hime while he hit me. I usually cry, but this time nothing. Which got him even more angry until he started pinching the fuck out of me, which left bruises l'll attach in the photos. (Ignore the cuts, they're self harm scars, also photo 1 is right after, 2 is what i took now)

Now he's getting more and more angry so he storms out of my room into his, to go find a belt. I go and lock my room door as, i dont want to get fucking beaten (just me i guess) he demands me to open the door, saying he'll break it down. I threaten to call the police.

After 5 minutes of him yelling behind the door, mum ensures he wont touch me and he swore he wouldn't. But he's absolutely pissed, on how i "disrespect him" and how he's the leader and i have to listen to him and cant have a say in his decisions. He also mentions how he's doesn't care if i call the police because "what will they do, where will you go. If you're a disrespectful person, we don't want you in our household anyways" which is scary to me how quickly is comes to him to abandon me and how he doesn't want me to begin with.

Lecturing go on for 2 hours, i dont really remember, i just stared at the wall and answered if he demanded (luckily he didnt hit me in this 2 hour period, but he came close to if my answer wasnt "perfect")

After the fight i go to the bathroom and stuff, take a breather, and mum asks us to make up and start a new page. She asks us to hug and i say no. He still comes and hugs me, and gets angry again because i didnt return the hug and thats disrespectful. (he just beat me fir the past 2 hours, i dont have more explanation for why i didnt hug him)

I went to take a nap coz i am losing my shit. Mum talks to me about how this was all expected, how one day i would stand up to him since he treats me the way he does. Mum offers to buy me food which i decline but yeah.

Little notes and stuff: -this argument was in Arabic so i tried my best to translate it. -Also throughout the fight he kept on quoting verses from the Quran and twisting them, he kept gaslighting me into thinking i'm the wrongdoer and emotionally manipulating me. -sorry if grammar mistakes or English errors. English is my 2nd language and i just woke up with the biggest headache on earth. Thanks for reading <3