I made a mess, I need to leave

made a mess at work in the military. not serious for other people, but is gonna throw a lot of shit on my shoulders. I need advices about how to start a new life with no money in a different country.

i'm thinking about Amsterdam maybe, seems like an open minded place to settle and start over again; also Celtenham is one of the possibility, i know someone there who can help me finding a job.

I've always been a fluorescent idiot, but always put 110% in what i was doing, so I'm used to being the last wheel of the cart and I've got no ego because of clinical depression so I do not have issues about working idiotic hours for minimum wage if this means flying away from here.

I never had any kind of love or affection relationship with my parents, we were nothing more then flatmates. So i don't mind becoming a ghost and never see them again.

in a week or two a huge load of shit will be fully covering me from head to toes and at that point I will be signin my leave and packing for the next adventure. no remorse.

I will leave all my money to my parents, as a payment for what they have done about keeping me alive and shit like this.

i will only keep for myself the money i will need for the ticket.

now, population of reddit...

i plead you to give me every advice you can on how to start a new life in another country. how to interact with people, how to handle the first times of homelessness and so on