Is it possible to keep Moving forward despite having Negative self Image and Inferiority complex as a Short,balding Guy?

So as a 21.y.o Guy with short height (5'6"or 168cm ) , With Male pattern baldness, with round face I have never been the one who was Confident in anything and the difference in the way people treat Tall attractive men compared to short men was always apparent since childhood.

For more than 4 years I have had inferiority complex due to my height and recently it has started to chip away at my Will to even continue living my LIFE and hope to be ever be considered Desirable by anyone.

Growing up I never was social to begin with resulting in me being an Awkward person with not- so-great conversation skills just enough to make people understand what I am saying and i can't continue beyond once the topic I am discussing about is over and have hard time expressing Emotions.

I am Pursuing a college degree that doesn't have a very bright future (Computer science) and it has one of the most saturated Market.

With all these things said I have tried many things but I don't think I will ever recover from my inferiority complex but I atleast want to be a productive individual.

Now is it true to Assume that the most Productive people are the ones with good self esteem and self-assurdness? If true then Is it possible for let's say an individual who has negative self esteem to be productive in anything (job, studiesetc).

The reason I am asking this weird Question is because First My Future is dark, unclear because the field I am studying requires talented, creative people which is something only genetically blessed people have on the other hand I have to put in much efforts to get by bare minimum.

Second My body is really Not the attractive type Short genetics , balding, hard to put-on-muscles genetics now you would say that being Confident is what matters the most but what should I Even base it on ? During my school years and even now in College I see Different treatment Tall, attractive guys get versus me who isn't even visible to anyone but I am not complaining about that.

When Individuals (Tall guys) have gotten postive complements since childhood they all grow believing in themselves being confident and as a result are deemed attractive By many people because of positive feedback and they overall perform better in many areas of life so they are bound to be productive one way or other. The most crushing moment was when I saw my crush hanging out with a tall attractive guy holding hands just further increasing my inferiority complex even more and just further cementing that I cannot live the same life as them.

A month or so ago I started gaming to distract myself but then I felt extreme guilt for wasting time and now I am back again to all these negative thoughts about myself and even thought about Ending My life because what's the point of even trying anymore as I am neither Physically attractive nor I have anything I can bring to the table , why should I live in this pathetic body ? I even articulated to suicide after a certain age but I don't want to do that but I also see no reason to continue living ? Please give me any advice to atleast keep going.